is about how much I hate myself and my mind. I can’t believe something like that honestly just triggered me. Acting in a television show 20 years ago just triggered a memory of my ex holding her hand to my face. A memory that I had tried to push back along with the others. But of course like that memory, many more are now flooding my mind and I cannot stop them. I wish there was some way I could just forget those things, never have them pop-up like that again….
I recently decided to upload the majority of my pictures on to my iPod so that I could look through them and upload some whenever I feel like it. However I started to search through them and look at the thousands of memories I’ve captured. While doing so I have had a few realizations.
-I have had way too many relationships.
-I miss Murray so very much.
-I have a bad memory when it comes to the names of those women.
-I hate remembering moments with certain past girlfriends.
-I miss my old best friend.
-Life really does change people.
-I am really vain and narcissistic.
-Sakavian actually used to be cute.
-I hate growing up.
So yeah, figured I’d share this since I haven’t posted anything real in awhile.