is about how much I hate myself and my mind. I can’t believe something like that honestly just triggered me. Acting in a television show 20 years ago just triggered a memory of my ex holding her hand to my face. A memory that I had tried to push back along with the others. But of course like that memory, many more are now flooding my mind and I cannot stop them. I wish there was some way I could just forget those things, never have them pop-up like that again….

I recently decided to upload the majority of my pictures on to my iPod so that I could look through them and upload some whenever I feel like it. However I started to search through them and look at the thousands of memories I’ve captured. While doing so I have had a few realizations.

-I have had way too many relationships.

-I miss Murray so very much.

-I have a bad memory when it comes to the names of those women.

-I hate remembering moments with certain past girlfriends.

-I miss my old best friend. 

-Life really does change people.

-I am really vain and narcissistic.

-Sakavian actually used to be cute.

-I hate growing up.

So yeah, figured I’d share this since I haven’t posted anything real in awhile.